Today is the last day of the vacation. Am just back from a trip to my hometown, Ranchi. On the last day of every vacation and before joining office, I start feeling jittery. Its the unknown.....the potential "bombs" in the outlook mailbox, that make me nervous. I remain on verge of a massive heart attack during the time that outlook takes for updating the mailbox!!! Today....for a change I am not too nervous. I will be lying if I say that I am not thinking about the "bombs". But today, there is another emotion that is overpowering the usual nervousness. I am missing my parents like crazy. I can feel the rock of gibraltar right on my chest and I want to cry my heart out (yes macho men, I cry like a baby and I am not ashamed). I am not feeling motivated to go to the office at all. Why do we work? What is all this for? What are the priorities? My parents are on top of my priority list (it should be the case with everyone's priority list, isnt it?). When I was leaving for the security check at Ranchi airport, my papa had this look in his eyes....I cant describe the look but it made me curse myself for not being with my parents, not helping them with everyday stuff...not being there. I am feeling very helpless. But I want my ma-papa to know that I am not feeling this way just because today I am homesick. I feel this way each day of my life. I love you papa-ma and I am missing you like anything.